You don't know me.

When did i start losing my strength.

2011-03-22T20:53:00.003+08:00

Yeah tumblr's all fun and addictive crack so i guess i kinda need to pour everything out here since what i'm feeling right now is kinda too heavy for tumblr. No this is just for me to vent. Okay so perhaps CT1s really isn't anything for me to get too worried about since it's kinda like the warm ups and everybody says it's gonna be fine blah blah. I gotta admit that i didn't put in much effort this time round so maybe that'll be an excuse for my worst than crap results but then again i did put in some effort and it seemed like it didn't count at all. And if i can't even sacrifice a little here and there now, how am i going to put in more effort next time round? And then i think about my four H2s and goddamnit how many times have i thought of dropping but the small hope of getting a scholarship always pushed the idea out of my head but right now it seems inevitable for me to drop. Then again i wonder which to drop. All my subjects seems equally weak to me. You kidding me. Seriously. I know what's wrong but i don't know why i can't/won't do anything about it. Pfft. So now i feel like all the strength is draining out of me and i can't possibly go on much further it's like i'm not strong enough to overcome all this challenges and this scares the shit outta me. Where the fucking hell is my determination, my strength, or do i have none to speak of? I see my friends mugging the daylights outta them but i can't seem to start. Okay maybe this is some trivial kid crisis but alevels is a freaking life and death shit. Once you're screwed, you're fucking screwed and i'm not even rich enough to afford an overseas education. So i guess that's it for me then.

Somebody tell me everything's gonna be okay please?

end of rant/vent

2011-01-30T22:33:00.002+08:00

I've got a tumblr but i'm not revealing the address cause i want to have the freedom to post whatever whichever i like (: I kinda feel liberated. Well, expect me to neglect my blog for a while!

2011-01-30T17:42:00.001+08:00

YUNHO AND JAEJOONG WERE MEANT FOR EACH OTHER.

2011-01-30T17:22:00.003+08:00

There are so many things in life that i'm bitter about, but sometimes i wonder if they're really that important, if it really does affect me that much.

I am a total slob and there's nothing i can do about it.

2011-01-29T19:53:00.003+08:00

Tumblr and twitter so darn tempting but i'm too much of a pig.
But so tempting! Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Tumblr cause i can reblog like nobody's business. Twitter allows me to rant every five seconds. I will try my best.

Beyond words.

2011-01-25T21:40:00.000+08:00

Teddy Tedholm is fucking brilliant.

TEDDY.

2011-01-24T20:47:00.000+08:00

SO DAMN FUCKING GOOD.

On sudden post spam.

2011-01-23T00:10:00.004+08:00

WHAT THE FUCKERY IS THIS. Oh my holy cow this pissed me off so bad. THIS WITCH HAVE BETTER CHANCES OF GOING TO HELL THAN GAYS. When they finally get murdered, there should be autopsy performed to see what the hell was growing in their brains to make them think like that. I mean gays are so much cooler. GO TYRA, KNOCK THE SHIT OUTTA THEM.

I wanna go paris and see hot gays for real. Stereotyping.

I'm searching yet i can't find.

2011-01-22T23:41:00.003+08:00

KJW's Band, WALRUS.
He's almost perfect, They're pretty decent.

2011-01-22T23:16:00.005+08:00

After stalking xxx's fb profile today, I was overwhelmed with the thought {where the effing hell did all my j2 eye candies went to!!!} !@#$%^&*)): The mysterious case of disappearing eye candies. Kay kidding. We are the seniors this year, so no seniors for us to ogle at anymore. Dayum. And fyi, i'm not a pedophile, little boys do not excite me. This sucks. Not that my life is not bad enough.

Haven't been updating since forever! Cause school is wearing me out and i'm a lazy girl as usual. But yeah, it's pretty hard to catch up with work. Not exactly in the best of moods recently. I get annoyed and pissed off at the slightest thing. I'm almost always feeling frustrated for god knows what reason and erm practically i just think my life is down in the pits. I SAW SOME MF BACKPACKERS IN CHINATOWN TODAY AND I JUST WANNA GO UP TO THEM AND SAY I LOVE YOU THIS IS THE LIFE BRING ME ALONG. But anyway omg chinatown is packed like sardine can, really got my blood boiling man. Like people, GTFO!

Had dinner with tusi tsui yesterday. Good times just like good old days. Nothing much is needed to be said. <3

Need to chiong homework tmr ): Did nothing productive today except recovering my lost sleep hours.

asdfghjkl

2011-01-18T23:55:00.001+08:00

Damn homework. I am epic screwed. No the worst has yet to come. So not epic screwed, but screwed up nonetheless. Damn me and my laziness. What to do with myself! ARGHHH GP ESSAY, CHEM PRAC, TRNG TMR, NO FUCKING TIME TO DO GEOG ESSAY. I WANNA DROP CHEM SO BAD NOWWW.

OKAY I WILL CHILL. NOT.

Proud wife only.

2011-01-16T00:47:00.003+08:00

MAGNIFICENT JAWLINE. That's what i'm talking about.

His roots are starting to grow. My tabi actually listens to NIN. You rock, love. I am incredibly proud of him. Hahaha okay i'm currently listening to NIN and i can't sleep cause i can't stop nodding my head. What am i even saying. Okay had a good dinner today. Awesome chinese food is OSM. And Ikea's espresso grounded coffee beans is surprisingly good i'm gonna start making coffee at home. Yesssssssssss.

School sch shoo.

2011-01-13T23:06:00.004+08:00

I think my husband has got spectacular bone structure. But not that you can see in these photos anyway. Okay school sucks arghhhhh i feel so sad for my upcoming 10-11 months. And erm well training's kinda funny seeing how coach is really nice and bias towards girls. I am so tired.

I miss bigbang and gd&top i wanna stalk them soooooooon.

My brain is not functioning well i don't know what to say! IDKWTS!

inserts profanities

2011-01-08T00:55:00.002+08:00

Whut whut whut why yesasia actually charges postage fee for GD&TOP album!!! Freak and they said the item was eligible for free international shipping. How can they cheat my feelings. Dayum i still haven't order it online cause of the price. What if it becomes out of print! This is so frustrating.

EEeeep.

2011-01-07T00:58:00.003+08:00

Too much hawtness i cannot take it. They are holding hands lmao so cute.
I nearly squealed when top went on rocking his hair and headbanging asdfghjklasdfghjkl. Legs legs legs! NICE LEGS TABI.

Can't frikkin' contain my excitement.

2011-01-06T00:34:00.004+08:00

Okay i think i just squealed. Love models and silver mohawk forever.

KO.

2011-01-04T21:35:00.000+08:00

This mv is da shit. Cause firstly, you get to see top acting like a retard. THE EPIC BUBBLE WRAP SCENE. And i mean the most retarded kind of expression i've ever seen on him that left me choking and laughing so loudly my mum had to check out what i was looking at. I GOT GIFS TO PROVE HIS GENIUS ABILITY IN MANIPULATING FACIAL EXPRESSIONS. He looked like he'd hit the weed before filming or something. Oh and you also get to witness top's less than fail dancing? Lol at his attempt to dance. Idek. Lastly, c'mon he just oozes sexiness and you can't get your eyes off him. And btw, he rocks military like a boss.

I love tumblr people because they give the best comments ever. EVA. Wanna reblog but no such thing. Argh tumblr is tempting.

I WASTED MY WHOLE DAY FML.

Ghettoelectro again.

2011-01-04T17:07:00.000+08:00

LOL LOL LOL. THIS LITERALLY MADE ME ROFLMFAO. I really love people on the internet sometimes. And they released their knock out mv! Full of dork goodness and retardness for some reason. They just looked pretty stoned.

HIGH CUT + TOP = BADASSHAWTNESS

2011-01-02T16:40:00.003+08:00

Coming soon! Am patiently waiting for hot stuff.

OH BTW I WATCHED DEXTER SEASON 5 12 HOURS BACK TO BACK MARATHON YESTERDAY SINCE 10AM. Kidding. I watched 4 hours and recorded the rest :D Still in the midst of finishing!!! I LURB HARRISON HE'S SUCH A DEVIL!

OMGGGGGGGGG.

2011-01-02T15:20:00.002+08:00

OHAMGEEE.

I just saw a Lee Hyuk Soo lookalike at The Central just now! I swear he freaking looks like the real thing and he was so gentlemanly, holding the doors open for me and all that. Lol okay it wasn't just for me but still i would like to think of it that way hahaha. I rode in the same elevator as him! Lol this is crazy, i'm crazy. Ahh should've stole a few more glances at him!

I NEED TO START ON HOMEWORK NEXT WEEK!!!!!!!!! D:

Nahnahnana.

2011-01-01T00:47:00.006+08:00

New year is only new year.

2011-01-01T00:23:00.005+08:00

Aye so what's the big deal with another new year man seriously. For one, i don't like this year cause 2011 is the fking year which i have to take the fking alevels. I don't have a liking towards new years. Okay if i were to stop being this pessimistic, let's say i hope this year would be a good one because i do need plenty plenty of luck and whatsoever to keep me going.

Hmm btw my lovely cute ass song joong ki and darling jang geun suk won some award at KBS drama award. Oh this made my day. I guess i'm easily contented with this kind of stuff. Well they feed my soul nonetheless.

Alright i'm watching the something something music awards on channel U now and damn, lee hong ki can sing. HE CAN SING! I feel so happy for korean music scene suddenly. I guess cause they're too many pretty faces but average/less than acceptable vocals in kpop. So random.

Well people, have a happy year ahead! All i ask for is to survive through the next 365 days.

You keep me going.

2010-12-31T15:49:00.000+08:00

Mary had a little lamb.

2010-12-28T23:59:00.001+08:00

Antique Bakery cast! Hehehe i'm so happy!!! :D

Dayum. Accidentally caught a bit of Mary stayed out all night on KBS and i am reminded of how much i still adore jgs and kjw. Kyaaaaaa all the way i was like oh holy two eye candies at the same time?! Yeah well that sends people into heart attacks.

Anyway, i went ice skating with three other cuckoos yesterday and damn, do i really suck at it. My balancing is off the radar and i fell on my butt a couple of times. Shit it's so embarrassing i'm most probably never heading back there again. And I had no idea that my body would ache so much this morning that i had a hard time getting out of bed. I guess cause i relied a lot on my arm for support that's why my arm hurts more. Oh hell i'm getting buffer btw. Not skinny anymore ):

THANKS BIRDS FOR THE COOKIES AND PRESENTS! MANY MANY LOVES!

My homework amount is the same as when school just ended. Kinda. This sucks big time. I hate school omg i hate my life.

OH HOLY IT'S MY FKING AWESOME BURFDAE!

2010-12-26T23:21:00.004+08:00

I want these headphones so bad but guess how much they freaking cost. At the very least, $730 SING DOLLARS. Never seen any headphone more expensive than this.

Back to the topic, TODAY IS MY AWESOME BIRTHDAY AND THANK YOU EVERYBARDY WHO WISHED ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! YOUR WISHES MADE MY DAY SERIOUSLY. AND MY AWESOME E2 PEEPS WHO REALLY SURPRISED ME

ALBUM YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

TOTALLY GTOP WORTHY. IDE. I LOL'ED TILL MY CHEEKS HURT.

LIKE A DREAM COME TRUEEE.

2010-12-24T11:40:00.002+08:00

OMGEE THEY ARE SO SWEET MY TEETH HURTS.

Album releases todayyy! I wonder if we have it here in singapore this fast though. Maybe i could go check it out at hmv but oh holy shit i have loads of homework and unpacking/tidying to do. F MY MISERABLE LIFE.

KONNICHIWA!

2010-12-23T14:46:00.002+08:00

I AM SO SPAMMING MY LAPPY NOW BECAUSE I MISS MY MACBOOK SO MUCH. IT WAS LIKE OH YES BABY HERE YOU ARE WHEN I SAW MY PRETTY SILVER MACBOOK SITTING ON THE TABLE. CAPPED.

Japan trip later complete with photographs!!! I wish i hope, no promises hahaha. Ya know imma lazy girl with ultra lazy bones and laziness emanating off me.

I''m just here to say hi to the world. HI WORLD.

G H E T T O E L E C T R O

2010-12-15T18:44:00.004+08:00

DORKS ARE DORKS. THEY MAKE A CUTE COUPLE.

Okay people, i'll be leaving for japan tomorrow night. I don't think i'm ever coming back. Kay kidding. But shit, i really wanna stay there and not return. Alright alright I'M EGGCITED YEAHHHH CAN'T WAIT TO GET MY ASS ON THE PLANE AND FLY FLY FLY HIGH~ TO JAPAN. I'm gonna miss my macbook though. Argh. Hey i might just see gackt sama there.

PLEASE LEMME STAY IN JAPAN FOREVER.

Ma boys are so fly~

2010-12-15T05:00:00.001+08:00

allkpop trending last night,

gd&top
t.o.p
g-dragon
high high

Next stop,
WORLD DOMINATION.

High high i'm so high~
I'm thinking i can replay this for 12 hours straight. Okay maybe all the way till i'm in japan. Just way too many sluts in this video.

Ohhohoho this is not happening.

2010-12-14T15:11:00.004+08:00

I swear he's gonna be the most handsome and hottest looking grandpa alive 50 years down the road. IDE. *fangirl moment**screeeeeeamsssss*

3.38PM NAO. YOUTUBE CHANNEL BETTER NOT CRASH. KEEP CALM AND WATCH PREMIERE.

My fever may have went up a few degrees.

Yesyesyesyesyes.

2010-12-14T15:06:00.003+08:00

Excuse moi while i faint. Another hour left. Oh holy holy.

OHMYOHMY.

2010-12-13T22:02:00.003+08:00

EEEKKKKKK!

Youtube premiere on 14/12 5pm! Omg that's like a few hours! Hours away only!!!

Freak what in the world is KST? Okay gonna google it. Oohhh it's the same as japan time, so we're one hour away only! Yippeeee :D

2010-12-12T09:45:00.001+08:00

WTH I SLEPT AT 3AM LAST NIGHT BUT MY MUM HAD TO WAKE ME UP AT NINE. 9AM!!! I'M SO PISSED I'M AWAKE. SERIOUSLY JUST LEMME SLEEEEEEEP!

GC.

2010-12-12T00:22:00.010+08:00

I fucking love gackt sama and his band oh my holy goodness. Gackt sama is most probably the most talented person i've ever known in my whole life. Whatever his biography says, i know for sure he can play the violin, piano, guitar, drums fucking well and his voice is like icing on the cake. Clueless people thinks he lipsyncs during live concerts cause his voice is so flawless they can't differentiate. In fact i don't know what this man can't do for he is so goddamn queer he can do a crotch split like nobody's business, spend four days preparing curry and have sparring with his workers which caused one of them to have a broken rib. He has got a goddamn trampoline at home and a fountain in his bedroom wtf. I know, he's weird. He actually can really speak chinese and english though not perfection. He's almost good in everything. GacktJob is luvvv too. I love you san for his violin goodness and chachamaru for his long curly locks and guitar pwness omfg how kawaii can these people get. They are so gay together i just *-* I think Jrock secretly flows in my blood because i'm so in love right now. Btw their hairs looks so soft and fluffy in that picture i want.

This always gets my pulse racing. Fav fav fav fav fav love love love love.

2010-12-10T15:20:00.003+08:00

Like a fucking boss. I think he looks good with his hair down. Can't. Resist.

Tumblr is needed. Should I?

Don't take it seriously.

2010-12-09T21:19:00.004+08:00

YG family concert is awesome. Tabi is so hyper i love him.

LOL IDE. LIKE A PEDOPHILE.

THOSE LUCKY BITCHES.

Modehllaa.

2010-12-08T22:55:00.004+08:00

HIGHCUT always deliver editorials(love). And he has the most gorgeous nose i've ever seen on any human being.

Btw i went Christmas shopping with my mum just now. It's amazing how i'm actually able to walk in my clogs the whole day without feeling any pain. Parking fee at taka is abhorrent. Daylight robbery man. Received my fluffy white bearish hat thingy from zhihua today hahaha. IT'S SO FLUFFY I CAN DIEEE. Okay seriously i need courage to wear that but since i'm going to japan, i might as well just try :D

Insanely adorable.

2010-12-08T22:52:00.005+08:00

IDE UNF. Do i need to say more? Nomnomnom. YOU JUST MADE MY DAY BETTER.

FOW.

2010-12-07T21:04:00.005+08:00

Chinnie showed me this trailer today. Hell yeah this is a must watch! Kinda anime like, almost surreal, well i guess it is sort of unreal. Don't really get the storyline but it looks promising. And the song choice is another plus point for this movie. Music is sweet.

Intro is sick.

DAMN THAT BASS AND DRUM. DRUMMER IS HIGH. *whips hair*

NuThang.

2010-12-02T00:18:00.005+08:00

Do you spot two hot guys sitting at the corner? That's my tabi and my current model crush.

LHS/LSH

His bone structure is simply MAGNIFIQUE. I have much more pictures of him but no need to rush hahaha. He's too beautiful to have his pictures spammed, not that tabi is not, but this man's jawline, nose bridge, cheekbones is just breathtaking. I effing effing love his nose and cheekbones. LOOK AT THAT!! Never would i imagine to see such strong features on an asian but oh my holiness he's so beautifully androgynous.

Double combo.

2010-11-29T14:51:00.004+08:00

I AM SO HAPPY I AM DELIRIOUS. Everything's official now and GTOP ALBUM?!?!? Spazzing and dying. I wanna put the two of them into a heart shaped frame. Oh gawd.

On the side note, today's training officially gave me a spectacular goggle tan. I thought morning training's all chilly and cloudy but oh, the sun decided to come and play and gave me a freaking shit ass tan line and made me few shades darker. Need to bring sunblock.

ON MY BIRTHDAYYY MUAHAHAHAHA. Best birthday present ever!!!

MAMAMAMAMAAM.

2010-11-28T22:21:00.005+08:00

FUCK DID I MISS THEIR PERFORMANCE?!?!!? AHH GODDAMN IT NARNIA!!! GTOP DOUBLE COMBO IS LOVEEEEEEEEEE. NUFF SAID

OH PERFORMANCE COMING APPARENTLY!!!!! THREE BAMF ON STAGE.

FUCK YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHH. HELL YES TURN IT UP LIVE. I SWEAR THIS MAN IS CUT OUT TO WEAR A SUIT.

THEY FREAKING OWNED THE STAGE.

Spot.

2010-11-27T23:08:00.008+08:00

HE WON BEST NEW ACTOR AWARD PLUS POPULARITY AWARD! SAW IT COMING MAN. He's my boy after all. This video is full of win. Top's hair and height makes him stand out so very much. Okay, pretty girl sun hye jin spot, song joong ki (!!!!!!) spot, won bin and lee byung hun looking fine. I like this video yes i do.

Really, how much hair spray was needed to make that hair of his stand!!! I mean that's A LOT of hair!!! He has got his eyebrow shaved just like those in his chae moshin era. Naise.

Okay went out with chinnie for harry potter today and then had dinner with bobo, rj and dessert with yiheng. Snakes were scary,dessert stall cheat my money. Yesterday was PS with five out of six geographers LOL. Our class attendance is the best really. So we went to eat astons and then burger king to satiate benny's appetite. Talked for what seemed forever before heading home. I like.

THE REASON I LOVE GD x TOP / BB.
Oh but i do miss their old hairstyle.

Drop it like it's hot. P2

2010-11-21T23:52:00.004+08:00

Lol this is in B&W so obviously he got black hair here. But you get my point.

JJAANGG! SLIVER MOOHAWK. Now this reminds me of GD's blonde hair and tabi's usual black back then, except the roles are reversed.

SCHOOL AT 0930. BAD.

Drop it like it's hot.

2010-11-21T23:23:00.007+08:00

Plentiful of gtop, like the way it should.

First thing that came to my mind: HAWT SLUT. SLIVER MOFO MOHAWK! Lol the way he eyes the camera and goes drop it like it's hot is just so damn pimp-ish. Fairly shocked and disturbed at his hair initially but this man looks good with ANYTHING, i'll give him that. Just look at him smokin' on his electric cig like a friggin boss. *re-watches this for the 10000000th time*

I kinda miss his black hair though. Okay promise to post black haired tabi pictures.

Lost my stamina to blog properly.

2010-11-19T23:21:00.007+08:00

Unplugged.

And live.

Live (guitar)

Freaking love this song for all my life.

I will forever admire people who can play piano absurdly well and not to forget, he wrote the song. He can sing damn well and being a composer that freaking means he can play other instruments too. (and yes he can) He's so talented he blows my mind away. Quotes "mastered several musical instruments, including but not limited to: Tuba, trumpet, horn, trombone, piano, guitar, bass, drums and more. Gackt speaks Japanese, English, Chinese, Korean and little bit of French."

Can people stop being so perfect!!!

And while waiting for big bang's delayed comeback, Jrock is really doing a good job of distracting me.

MASHITA.

2010-11-18T00:28:00.002+08:00

I WANT TO GOBBLE HIM UP. LOL'ed at fans reaction hahaha. Okay i can listen to his voice and never get bored of it.

This first, blog later.

2010-11-16T23:57:00.001+08:00

FML IS THE ONLY WORD IN MY MIND RIGHT NOW. I MUST BE DUMB.

Lemme tell ya.

2010-11-14T00:53:00.003+08:00

Alright it's official. I'm shipping J-rock again because nobody, apart from my dearest precious big bang, can sing as well as Japanese boys. edi: (OKAY THIS IS BIASED BECAUSE I'M GETTING HIGH ON JROCK NOW) Dead serious. Gazette was my first love, and i realize i'm still in love. What's not to love. Oh somebody please intro me to more J-rock bands okay. I really don't mind visual kei. Aye i love their music their pv are always a bit hard to digest. LOL IDK IDC.

FUCK. I'll be honest. I freaking hate this pv because it freaking creeps the hell out of me and the fat dude. What's with the fat dude and the whore! Damn sick and twisted. Freak fat dude reminds me of joker, only 1000000 times worse. But this is one of my all time favourite song. Well well.

YES MY BOYS RULE THE WORLD. BAMF ALL THE WAY. ESPECIALLY THE ONE ON THE RIGHT.

Dayum.

2010-11-12T19:44:00.004+08:00

This is long long time ago. Picnic at marina barrage with a bunch of awesome people that is. Hehe this album is full of win. Unglam pictures, funny poses and hilarious expressions. I think everything turned out pretty nicely! Anyway, pro kite flyers like jasmine, meiting and lishi went to fly their kites high high in the sky while lazy bums like me, well maybe only me, sat down on cement floor and stuffed myself with food and camwhored. Aye, it was drizzling that day. Anyhow, picnic was greatttt :D

I FEEL SO DAMN LAZY I DON'T ACTUALLY KNOW HOW IN THE WORLD I ENDED UP BLOGGING. LOL.

Seriously, my tan line is getting from bad to worse. How in the world did i end up few shades darker despite having no training this week!!! Everybody's been saying i became darker. Whywhywhy. I swear my legs are like the darkest shit i've ever seen!!! I personally think i've became buffer too. Especially my arms. Damn they're going to turn flabby if i don't work out. But if i do, it's going to get bigger ): Right.

Oh my eyeball is screwed up as well. All red and pink and painful and itchy. Can't wear contacts soon but argh i can't live with my specs! )): Need to sleep early to protect my vulnerable eyes.

Anyway anyway, went to makan with zhihua yesterday at vegan burg! Not bad at all! I actually like their fries much much more than their burger but the burger was good too! It's the place for vegetarians like boon kiat i swear. Lol everything there was kinda nice, little people, nice ambiance, only thing is that the aircon wasn't working. Then we went to city plaza to shoppp! Got this uber cute shirt that is meant to be worn as dress (?) at only 8 bucks!!! It's totally cute i mean it. Saw a couple of chio stff but I HABBZ NO MONEEEH. SHIT. Zhihua has been dreaming about her fringe top ever since.

Okay okay should i post tabi later? Hahahaha. Got a couple of nice pictures. Oh hi zhihua i totally agree that top has got awesome cheekbones and masculine features. Hee. You made my day!

PIGBANK.

2010-11-09T21:47:00.002+08:00

I feel extremely lazy right nao. Super lazy so i'm gonna post maybe tomorrow, the day after or whenever i feel like it but not now. Argh. Still, i'm gonna feed myself my bb addiction thank you very much.

Why so adorkable.

I promised a spam didn't I.

2010-11-04T23:52:00.006+08:00

He think's he's smexxy too. I know somewhere some point, people like shili and zhihua can't stand my spam anymore. Lol i know.

MY DESKTOP FOREVER. ZOMGGG HE'S ACTUALLY WEARING V NECK! AND THAT FACE. UNF.

With this much images, i could start a tumblr already but ahh i'm lazy. Heehee.

Today is a day for spamming.

2010-11-04T22:51:00.005+08:00

HAWTTTT MAXXX HELLO. Cheekbones perfect, nose perfect, eyes perfect, brows perfect, lips perfect, height perfect. I am such a delirious fan girl. Haha at least i'm aware of that myself. Last picture is perfecto.
MORE SPAMS COMING UP LATER MAYBE. ALLOW ME TO INDULGE THANKS. TODAY IS HIS BIRTHDAYYY! Thinking of sending him birthday gifts through YG lol. Yes i am that crazy and looney. But i can't afford shit.

Aye today went lepaking with wendy lishi zhenwei liwei ivan joe! Me, wendy and lw camwhores maxxx. It was awesome man. Me and lishi getting high to big bang's song then lw playing some idiot iphone app like a REAL IDIOT talking to herself. Lol omg it was so funny really. Straight from a comedy or something. And lishi found her THIRD EYE. Behold the mighty third eye which cracked everyone up except for chang. Wonder what's wrong with that guy really. Oh i love pissed off lishi because she just gets damn freaking vulgar and it's hilarious lol. Drank starbucks and became broke and then i successfully psychoed ivan into treating us cheescake oh wow! I am so good at whinning tsk.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BIAS!

2010-11-04T00:04:00.004+08:00

HELLLLLLOOOO THEREEEEEE.
Oh what a fine excuse to spam all things top. Yeah today's gonna be a gooood day. Apart from pw and boredom i suppose. BUT YEAH MY BIAS SO HANDSOME AND DORKY AND CUTE AND HOT AND YOU KNOW THE RESTTT.

OMFGGG I LOVE THIS FREAKING DINO THING.

CUTIE.

Basically my dash is filled with all things big bang and gtop and tabi and i can't post them all. My mac will crash. Yeah.

Must wake up early tomorrow.

2010-11-02T23:20:00.006+08:00

TOP: BANANA!
BOM: I think he's an alien too.
Lol this cracked me up. Big bang tv/2ne1 tv is really amusing. MUST WATCH.

Okay okay a quick rundown of my life today.

Woke up, ate bird nest (LOL!!) and some cake thing for breakfast. Went to school, presented our op to ms suhana and she said it was not bad then had malay food for lunch. Took some laupok 55 back home, changed and met chinnie for movie and more lunch. Meet ups are always greattt. Watched the legend of guardian owl or something? Haha cute movie THE OWLS ARE SO FLUFFY I CAN DIEEE. Then ate sushi for lunch :D I kinda fell in love with unagi and onigiri these days. Came back home and attempted to use com but went jogging instead. I am so proud of myself heehee.

Ahh just got notified that i have ogl interview tomorrow. 20 MINS FOR GODSSAKE. I really don't know what i gotta do during that period of time. I mean huh what 20 mins?!?! Hope it turns out well and i don't need to do really stupid stuff. Because of this i need to wake up early. BULLSHIT.

Elbow jab.

2010-10-30T00:00:00.008+08:00

BIG BANG COMEBACK MID NOV!!!
DYING OF HAPPINESS :DDDDDD

I WILL LOVE HYPER TOP FOREVER <3

Sexy mofo long legs and seemingly chio shoe. His legs are looooong alright.

And tabi won the most popular actor or something award!!! Good news comes in bundles!!! Whoowheeeee~

when the days are down, your voice keeps me sound, saves my soul and makes me sane again.

Crap.

2010-10-28T14:27:00.003+08:00

I LIKE GUYS HOODS AND PULLOVERS CAUSE THEY ALWAYS LOOK BETTER THAN THAT FOR FEMALES. That includes print tees and sneakers too. Yeah i always buy guys sneakers ( inc. vans + converse hi + nike feather hi )

Shall continue online shopping! I am so bored i have no life i am rotting at home why nobody jio me go out!!! ):

9:30pm

Hi okay hello just had dinnah with zhihuaaa! Dessert first then proper meal plus bubble tea. Oh but no small pearls todayyy ): Woah i am so free. Okay anyway, just found these and i had to share ya know. Heeheehee. I can't fucking wait for their comeback! IT'S GONNA BE EPIC!

So erm btw this is the picture that i have been bothering people with. Hahahaha REAL MAN SHOWS THEIR AFFECTION OKAY. Lol omg but i still prefer him with GD. I am totally imposing my unhealthy obsession on you guys. Tsk. My bad. But hey, i really wanna show some GTop here :D

CUTEST PAIRING EVAAA! <3

That concludes my random shit post today. I need to get a life because it is evident that i am totally posting too regularly.

Pasta + Chocolate cone + Pig trotter + Beehoon.

2010-10-26T21:00:00.006+08:00

Yeah maybe that's why i overslept on the bus today together with jerine. She missed by 12 stops while i missed 11. Naise right. I know. Like wth i don't usually, okay put that as i rarely miss my stop because i possess a superhuman bio clock that'll wake me up when i'm reaching my destination but apparently it failed today. Woke up in ang mo kio. Not fun at all.

Anyway, the main purpose of this post is really to remind myself NOT TO EAT TOO MUCH because i overstuffed myself today againnn. Basically my title is what i had after two today. I didn't want a heavy dinner but I COULDN'T STOP MYSELF when i saw the pig trotter my dad bought back so i ate it with a packet of rice. Then i decided that no harm eating some more fried beehoon and tada gone case. I feel like a freaking pig now.

Luckily i have training tomorrow. I really need to get some fat off me. At this rate, i'll have too much body fat to get abs )): Abs say byebye.

Btw, i really feel like dyeing my hair but the thing is, i still have training over the holidays. Chlorine plus dye can't really be a good thing right! My hair colour is going to wear off fast and my hair will suffer the wrath of too much chemicals. CHLORINE + HAIR DYE = CUI HAIR. Howww. I was thinking apricot or pinky pastel red but it would be too obvious. Arghhh. Brown is boring. Maybe ash brown. I don't know ):

Thumbdeedee dumb.

2010-10-25T19:59:00.008+08:00

Oh look, he is rocking the GJP hairstyle five million times better than lee minho. Spikey leather jacket just adds on to his BAMF points. BAMF//DORK hhnnnngg. I can see XINmsn lurking behind and i feel like killing myself because it just shows how near i was to seeing him but i freaking missed it. Okay i swear i'll get over it SOON, but lemme rant again okay pretty please.

AND HE DID NOT FUCKING JUST WIPE HIS SWEAT AND THREW IT INTO THE AUDIENCE!!! BITCHHHH. He is so dorky i love him. He needs to come back Singapore because i wanna see him ))): And i'll be that bitch that'll get whatever he throws into the audience Preferably him :D

NOT GOING TO KPOP NIGHT '10 IS THE BIGGEST MISTAKE IN MY LYFEEE. AND I SHALL NOT BE THIS DUMB EVER AGAIN. I PROMISE, BB.

why so hot really. especially loving the orange and black haired standing next to each other. GTOP is love.

On the side note, met up with char yesterday because i was feeling like such a loser and didn't want to watch fancam at home due to the fear of spazzing/hyperventilating or attempting suicide so i thought the safest bet would be to stay away from my lappy.

OH WE ARE SUCH GREAT EATERS MAN. We ate three times within 4 hours, or maybe less than that. So around three, we decided to have sushi for lunch then i suggested Tokyo Fruit Paradise (fucking gooooood) and we had FRUIT TARTS FOR HI TEA. The tarts are freaking awesome i swear. So erm after which, like less than one hour or so, we ate dinner at EWF. Applause again. EWF lamb burger is DELISH. And so were the girls hahaha. Well apparently the chicks working there are pretty chio and me and char felt so much like lesbians because we couldn't stop saying how chio they were.

THIS IS SO MUCH LIKE A DAY OUT PIGGING. NAISE.

I AM NOT HAPPY ANYMORE.

2010-10-23T23:02:00.003+08:00

TOP'S EYEFUCKING AND I WAS NOT THERE. THIS GIF IS SO HAZARDOUS TO HEALTH. HYPERVENTILATING. Hnnnnnnggggg.

WHATWHYYYYYYYYYAHHHHHHCRIES.

BIGBANG SANG 7 SONGS. GODDAMNIT SEVEN FUCKING SONGS, AND TOP WAS SIZZLING HOT AS ALWAYS BUT WTF I AM NOT THERE TO WITNESS IT. CAN JUST CUT WRISTS AND DIE ALREADY. CAN JUST BANG MY HEAD AGAINST THE WALL UNTIL I FORGET ALL THIS STUPID SHIT THAT HAPPENED. WTF. WTFFFF LIE ON THE BED AND CRY ALREADY. OMG I WANT TO KILL MYSELF. ARGHHHHHHHH.

BIGBANG WHY YOU MAKE ME SO CRAZY. I AM DELIRIOUS. GOING INTO SHOCK.

I AM A HAPPEE GIRL.

2010-10-18T22:20:00.003+08:00

YAY I DREAMT OF TABI FOR THE UMPTEENTH TIME ALREADY.

I PASSED MY GP! Yay whooohooo i really thought i was gonna screw it up because my definition was wrong right from the beginning but whoo lucky me :D

PW IS A REAL PAIN IN THE ASS. I dislike integration. Seriously seriously dislike it ):

About CAPRICORN; hey i was bored.
The Passionate Lover
Love to bust(what?). Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Grouchy at times and annoying to some. Lazy(HAHAHA YES) and love to take it easy. But when they find a job or something they like to do they put their all into it. Proud, understanding and sweet.
Irresistible. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants (by whining?). Cool. Loves to win against other signs especially Gemini’s in sports. Likes to cook but would rather go out to eat at good restaurants.
Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart(thankyou).

WHAT THE.

2010-10-16T10:55:00.003+08:00

FUCK. Are you fucking kidding me?!!!!! It's fucking in korea for christssake argh goddamnit i can never make it there unless I HAPPEN TO BE IN KOREA during that period of time, which is not gonna to happen. My mind was like WTFYTRFUY#$%^&!*() when i saw this. UGHHH why are you doing this to me!!!

WELL ANYWAYS, bbq at charlene's yesterday and it was her birthdayyy! She's a fab host and if not for her, get togethers won't happen so frequently and on a larger scale. I MUST KNOW MY WAY THERE ASAP or else i'll get lost every single time. Oh 103 gang is awesome alright!

I just went jogging in the morning but today the route seems so much more tough for god knows what reason. Maybe it's the up slope i don't know. BUT ARGH feel so weak today ):

TODAY IS UBER SIAN DAY.

JUST TO RANT,

2010-10-14T21:33:00.002+08:00

I NEED BIGBANG TO COMEBACK. Yeah that's about it. Dying. Dyingggg. Hnnnnggg.

Fanfic are like the best thing ever.

2010-10-06T20:55:00.003+08:00

BLEHHEEHEE I LOVE MY NEWLY ACQUIRED SHADES!

Went school early in the morning for pw crap then had lunch at thaipan! Spent the rest of the day sleeping at home and lazing around reading magazines and storybooks. Had the luxury of time to do all this kind of shit and not feel sorry. Made me kinda a pig. Yeah i feel so nua and fat.

Shopping yesterday with zhihua in town! Finally fixed my GC. Okay technically not fixed ; the person gave me a new one to replace! I feel so lucky and thankful and grateful because afterall battery leakage is not included in the warranty thingy. So i'll need to take care of gc from today onwards! Yeahhh. Bought clogs. Short ones so that i can wear whenever i want to given that i'll look like a giant wearing high heels. Zhihua very sad because don't have her size )): Hahaha.

Meet bokang for dinner and we had SKINNY PIZZA. Heard it makes you skinnnnnnnie! Okay i love mozzzzzarella cheese. Called allan along but that shitass hurt his back or something. At least that's what he said. Sad. Potential treat down the drain. But we'll be meeting tomorrow so yayyyyyyy :D

OH INSTAX IS AWESOME. Shall upload it to facebook soon!

Mornee.

2010-10-05T09:55:00.004+08:00

HI WORLD.

I went jogging and swimming over the weekend. Feel so proud of myself!!! Heeheeheeheehee. OH GUESS WHAT I DREAMT OF TABI AGAIN. This ish the third tymeeee. Okay erm i kinda need to transfer photos and stuff so i'll update on this post later! After i go shopping with mushroom headdd and get my gc for repair. Wheehee~

HEEEEHEEEEHEEEHEEEHE.

2010-10-02T13:55:00.004+08:00

Oh yeah~ ohhhhh yeahyeahyeahhh. This is how happy i am right now. No, since yesterday. :D

Come come people, i'm here to spread the love and share the joy. For those people sitting down studying and still getting fat, I RAN 3.6K TODAY. Muahahahaha starting to feel less oily already. It's a nice sunny day and i just went to see some winter clothing. Bought snow hat! Heeeee why so cute. Wanted to buy the children's one with those furry toy heads! GOT HUSKY AND SHEEP. Lol. But more expensive so nahhh.

I was feeling healthy and fresh and skinny but i just ate like two meals worth of thai food. Sinful.

BIGBANGCOMEBACKBIGBANGCOMEBACKBIGBANGCOMEBACKBIGBANGCOMEBACK
BIGBANGCOMEBACKBIGBANGCOMEBACKBIGBANGCOMEBACKBIGBANGCOMEBACK
BIGBANGCOMEBACKBIGBANGCOMEBACKBIGBANGCOMEBACKBIGBANGCOMEBACK

Tweeb tweeb tab.

2010-09-28T00:38:00.003+08:00

Going japan at the end of the year, so i thought i do some coat shopping. Zara's all neutral but the texture and cutting looks pretty good. Okayyy i'll shop THIS WEEKEND. SO going to.

Kinda doing this now. I'm so bored but i don't wanna study and i know i'll come to regret this. DAMNNNNNNNNNN ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. Hate my life. Oh wait, i have no life.

Gonna go cut some bitch.

How i feel about promos:

MOFO PROMO.

But this makes me wanna burst out laughing. Why the cuteness huh.

Random sudden gif spam. I'm going crazy ya know.
Come back please, i miss you guys.

Until whenever.

2010-09-25T23:27:00.002+08:00

"I already accepted that I relate to nothing."
-Daul Kim

Spent 5 fucking hours doing a bloody chemistry mcq. Felt so stupid and useless after that. Wth is wrong with my brain. Is it dying/degrading already? I don't know man. Just looking forward to post promos. IT WOULD BE TIME TO PLAY PARTEE SLEEP EAT GOOD FOOD SHOP AND SPAM BIGBANG. I know it's weird to say this, like i'm in too deep and too intoxicated, but really i'm only still hanging on because of you, BAMF.

YOU'RE MY MOTIVATION MY DARLING.

Whut you want.

2010-09-24T21:14:00.003+08:00

FUCK NO FEEL STUDY TODAY.

GP PAPER DAMN GAGA. DAMN BITCH. OH MAS SELAMAT'S BACK IN SINGAPORE. OH YEAHHH I DON'T GIVE A DAMN SHIT.

I WENT JOGGING. THOUGHT I SHOULD DO SOME WORK. BUT OH LOOK I'M WATCHING TEEVEE. NAISE.

Eye apple.

2010-09-23T00:00:00.000+08:00

Sudden apple craving. SUDDEN APPLE CRAVINGGG! Lol.

I got the bloody retainers today and it impaired my ability to speak at least comprehensible english/chinese. I speak as though i have short tongue now wtf. AND THE BOTTOM RETAINER WASN'T PROPERLY MADE so it's cutting my gum and it hurts like a bitch. I need to get a new oneee asap. I shouldn't have gone to school today. Sad. Wasted my precious sleeping hours.

Damn it GP paper is tomorrow. TOMORROW. Alright it's gonna be fine. Just fine. Yes yes yes i need to believe that i have exceptional grasp of english so it's gonna be like a piece of oreo cheesecake :((((((:

Snap snap.

2010-09-19T20:29:00.004+08:00

How about i went jogging on saturday morning?

Self conclusion in just one simplified motion.

2010-09-17T22:33:00.004+08:00

Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
And then leave me alone
Don't try to wake me in the morning
'Cause I will be gone
Don't feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I will feel so glad to go

Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
I don't want to wake up
On my own anymore

Sing to me
Sing to me
I don't want to wake up
On my own anymore

Don't feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I really want to go

There is another world
There is a better world
Well, there must be

And where i must be.

Later in the night.

2010-09-16T00:22:00.005+08:00

I'LL BE BACK TO BLOG. Off to sleep first. Bye yo.

Nawhhhhh.

2010-09-12T01:34:00.004+08:00

Alright i'm gonna spare you people from my persistent top spam. Anyhow, looking at BB footwear collection sent me into a sneaker/boots frenzzzzzy! And look at this fine thing <3 I love love love this Ann Demeulemeester sneaker. So subtle, plain, black, laced up and buckled. But it costs $1K plus if i'm not wrong. Of course a little studded leather boot is always great. Ahh goddamnit i regret not buying that Adidas hi-top black leather sneaker back then! Hopefully it's still on the rack and on offer when my dad comes back. I SHALL KILL IT.

HELLO WORLD I FEEL SO SAD CAUSE I DIDN'T DO ANY SHIT TODAY (okay i mean yesterday since it's midnight now). NO KIDDING. LOOK MY LIFE IS SO SCREWED. I'M ACTUALLY FEELING SCREWED UP CAUSE I WASTED ONE DAY NOT STUDYING. N1LCB.

Shoe porn.

2010-09-09T23:30:00.005+08:00

So zhihua told me she was going to scold me on my blog for spamming t.o.p but she couldn't. Hahaha too bad mushroom head! Therefore, i shall not spam tabi, but some shoe porn instead. Omfg it is really shoe porn to the max. If it makes you happier, just look at the shoes. I never noticed their shoes until i stumbled upon this. Studs, checked. Spikes, checked. Dior, checked. But Ann Demeulemeester?! Hell! I fell in love with their laced up boots since forever, and forever being i couldn't afford it of course. Zomggg. Tabi wore Christian Louboutin spiked sneakers too. I mean like seriously? I seriously love what you're wearing my dear.

OH I'M SO SICK OF STUDYING. Thus, as proposed by mushroom, we're gonna open a study center where students pay roughly $2/mth. We'll earn more than what serangoon cc earns! And we're not gonna provide anything for them except aircon, lousy tables and chairs. Price discrimination would be practised. The more As you score, the lesser you pay. Sounds like a good plan already.

Okay this is so damn lame. Laugh tomorrow.

Don't wanna study anymore.

2010-09-07T23:11:00.005+08:00

Look at my tabi sleeping/waking. How in the world can anyone look so fucking hot even when just waking up from a nap! Oh man i'm epic screwed. Fancy being obsessed with t.o.p at this crucial mugging time. Seriously man. Life has got a way of messing things up.

One tabi gif a day, keep the studies away. I would like to spam my side bar with all things him but i think rather not impose my love for him on you guys haha.

Lmao what am i talking about. Anywayyy i am seriously seriously damn sick and tired of jc shit! Oh gawd. No wonder why people say if you can survive jc, you can survive anything. I'm just afraid that i'll die halfway through jc. 2012 hurry come and take me away please. Oh i would be glad to go overseas and never ever come back again. Being an illegal immigrant or whatsoever sounds like a better plan.

But then again, hmmmmmmmmm what what in the butt. I don't know how to continue the sentence lol. Basically, i just can't do without a level cert because i need to go to uni and blah blah blah.

Hey guess what, i dreamt of my tabi for the past two days. That has gotta mean something right? Haha well who am i kidding.

Teeth so smoooooth.

2010-09-06T00:31:00.001+08:00

LOL MY TABI JUST DID THAT. EFFING CUTE. LOOOOOL HILARIOUS.

Hi people, sorry for my inconsiderate t.o.p spam once again. I am crazy now because apparently, well obviously, there are crazier fans out there. The shitass standing pit ticket is sold out and so is the CAT 2 one. I don't think CAT 3 tix is attainable anyway so yeah, my life is incomplete. And i realise my blog is becoming more and more like a tabi fan blog. Haha i'll try to curb myself okayyy.

Hmm hmm oh my god i was eating mackerel puff with chinnie at polar's just now and the freaking flacky puff flake went into my eye. MY EYE. And i was wearing contacts! Like wtf how in the world did it end up in my eye! I took quite a long time trying it get it out and i was swearing non stop lol. NO MORE MACKEREL PUFF EVER.

Lol i like allan tsui tsui cause whenever i'm talking to him or whatsoever, i get super high and vulgar hahaha. Hi allan, you make me wanna swear! Lmao our msn conversation is damn furnehhhh! Hahaha i love you allan lol. And and and where is dear bokang? He's the only one that i can spazzzz t.o.p with because he thinks tabi is hot too. GOOD TASTE. I can't believe i can spazzz about t.o.p with a guy. Hi bokang we need to t.o.p soon!

Alright i'm off to waste sleeping time on useless stuff. And today is yet another high and awesome day for me :D

Money grow on trees.

2010-09-05T02:23:00.004+08:00

Omooo it's me without braces and i looked liked a freaking carnivore lol. No, more like a horse. I look so weird i'm still getting used to it hahaha. And gone are those days where i need to remove stucked bits and pieces of food on my braces after eating. But the scaling and polishing my dear dentist did today hurt like hell. Thank god i pulled through without going into shock. LOL.

OMFG I'M SO HIGH RIGHT NOW although it's like 2am in the morning. I tried watching Playful Kiss but omg the comments are way more interesting than the drama itself hahaha. For some reason, i'm like seeing the conversation between people on the top right hand side of the video and it was goddamnit fucking funny. I swear i almost rolled on my bed laughing like a mad dog. And the drama is so damn draggyyyyyyyyyyy.

And i can't stand my tabi's sexiness. His smirks kills me. Ohh yar peeps did you see the gifs on the left bar? I love them lol.

I SWEAR I'M DAMN HIGH RIGHT NOW. COMMENTS ALWAYS CRACKS ME UP. WITHOUT FAIL.

Hypophrenia.

2010-08-30T22:04:00.002+08:00

Screw this shit. Don't know why but i feel so damn messed up and miserable now. I don't feel like seeing people, having a conversation, nodding my head for replies or so to say, even speak. I just want to be alone, and alone. I have no idea what came over me but i really feel so fucked up right now. It's funny how sometimes when you feel like being alone, texts come flooding, people starts to get concerned. But when you are yearning for company, they never seem to be around.

There's too many evil in this world. Living is such a pain. Perhaps a good night's sleep can calm me down.

71 into the fire.

2010-08-27T23:01:00.001+08:00

My tabi is so talented. He acted so damn well as a student soldier, Oh Jang Beom, that throughout the movie i forgot he's t.o.p. Effing love the movie. It was a total tear-jerker. It was a movie about how merely a group of 71 student soldiers fought an impossible war against the strong north korean army. Gives me the goosebumps every time i think about the many scenes in it. War is a freaking poophole. Haven't we seen enough deaths throughout human history because of war? There was a scene where a younger sibling was begging his brother to end his life because he was in too much pain. And when the brother did, the emotion was indescribable.

In some ways, the movies i've seen so far makes me feel that most american movies are no doubt action packed and the special effects are unbelievably good but it's all action, not much content. As for asian movies especially japan and korea, the movies may be lacking in action and pace, but they capture the emotions very well and it leaves a deeper impression. But of course, exceptions includes The pianist, greenmile, valkyrie, inception and perhaps avatar? I love the first two movie really.

Hmm aye I think i'm too emotional and sensitive a person. I feel so strangely saddened by the movie, i could hardly get over it. But whenever i tell people how impossible and difficult it was for the poor students who had a bright future ahead of them to fight and die for their country, even stalling the experienced north korean army for eleven whole hours, they go oh, erm so. Like it's no big deal. This makes me feel like an alien from god knows what planet. I don't know man, its pretty much a big deal for me.

" The north korean soldiers that i know were supposed to be monsters with horns, but it turns out that they people like us, people who miss home. " -Oh Jang Beom

Erm my tabi died heroically in the end. );

You make my knees go weak.

2010-08-25T20:31:00.001+08:00

I'm hopeless. I've become a through and through big bang fan and a t.o.p stalker. My addiction requires daily dosage of t.o.p or i'll be madly distracted by the lack of it. I'm so going to catch his latest movie and anticipate their new album! I freaking can't effing believe that i'm saying this.

Alright alright, did my chem spa today. Cheers! Whoo i was glad to get it over and done with. Hmm i guess it's going to turn out fine, maybe not hitting the expected 19/20 but somewhere around there. And guess what, NO SCHOOL TMR. Haha bite that bitches! I shall sleep late tonight and mug tomorrow. Today had been a highly distracting day for me.

And charlene, i'm still jealous that you got abs and i don't ): Whyyy. Why my abs so shy. I shall go jogging soon to burn away my fats. Swimming has a way of keeping me toned but my fats are forever there lol. Or is it? Maybe it's just me eating too much. Aye i saw the german athletes in SAJC on fb, DAMN JEALOUS. Why vj don't have!!!

She looks better burnt, you're kinder with your heart broken.

2010-08-23T19:22:00.000+08:00

Study date with swimmers on saturday. It was insanity inducing and not so productive hahaha. Too much coffee, too low the tables and too much mcspicy and the case of number 10. Ended up with a bad case of indigestion and felt like puking. I think i have the habit of gorging myself lol. Food is too much love. Sunday was with mr chang and mr yu. Hmm not bad! It was quite productive and i managed to finish conics assignment and some functions. But that's about it all.

And then i ate too much last night again, thus the heartburn coupled with throbbing headache and an extremely strong urge to puke. Felt like crap. Urgh. I MUST STOP EATING TOO MUCH.

Oh oh why are YOG sportsman all so cute and good looking? Hahaha. Should have volunteered and see the cute guys first hand. Well, maybe i'll go watch sailing after chem spa on wednesday :D But first, i need to get my horrific spa over and done with.

I'll never get tired of you.

2010-08-18T21:37:00.003+08:00

Why my baby so cuteee. Lol. Apparently the infatuation is not yet over.

Oh my god i feel like a freaking fat pig. I think i ate too much during swim dinner just now. Random facts about swim team:
Enan is a food bulldozer because he 'demolished' all the food as he puts it. Wenwei is a dirty boy with scavenger habits and jiaqing is a kid. Cheryl got long bangs like me, xinhuiii so nice and funny. Alena and chloe have a small appetite and chuuu shy shy! Chan yen got secret propeller, weijian is handsome boy and WeiAn don't want treat us fries. Pai is pie, sufang is paranoid. Jianghan is a himbo with yellow towel. Sounds like a poem alrighty!

Lol I feel so sick nowww. Shit i should stop whining but well too bad, i guess i'm not me anymore if i stop complaining or whining. Did caterpillar, played water polo (goddamn tiring!), domino jump into the pool and sprints for training today! Nearly died during sprints haha. Aye i swim like a snail.

Thinking whether i should drop to H1 and what to drop. Got a lot to think about hmm ):

Lululalala lululalala.

2010-08-15T20:49:00.003+08:00

Always heaven amidst hell.

Omfg watched a japanese movie about a rock band in the 90s recently and boy, japs do make good music. Their rock bands are awesome. They seem to have some elements present that is unique to j-rock. Ah reminds me of gazette. Effing sweet music. Haven't downloaded the songs yet so i'm living of youtube while doing work. Which means my macbook is disgustingly distracting. Like what i'm doing right now. Akanishi Jin in Lands is great. Greattt~

Went to support Clara at the yog triathlon event today with fellow swimmers today! Well done matey! Love your smile :D Triathletes are like crazy fit man. I feel tired watching them compete. Their stamina is ungodly really. Anyway, the carrot cake at ecp lagoon is freaking, freaking good. Like the nicest ever! Yum. And me and xinhui fulfilled our mission of looking for hot guys. So yeah hahahaha.

Off to do ionic equilibria AGAIN. Spent two days on it and i'm still freaking lost. I.E just screws up your mind upside down, inside out.

Whatever you say.

2010-08-12T22:15:00.000+08:00

Damn. He looks so damn effing fine. Who needs to spend days watching IRIS when i could just easily catch all his scenes on youtube right? Yes i'm a genius. Anyway i finished Bad guy and fucking shit. The stupid bitch killed my sweet villain. Why oh why does kng always get killed at the end. Well at least most of the time. Pissed me off seriously.

Went back zhonghua today to teach again after so long! One of my tutee ran away (!) so i'm left with Calvin and Alfred and if my memory doesn't fail me, calvin is actually mine while alfred is kelly's tutee. Peer tutoring ended late because i was dumb and had a lot to ask so i got to zhss late as well. My incredibly cheeky tutee was suay enough to have bumped into me after his detention so i dragged him to geog. After all i rushed back to zhss okay! I've got to at least make my trip there worthwhile. The duo brought me around the canteen buying food, wasting time until they finally succumbed to my persistence and that is a lot of hard work.

Hmm guess what! Their grades improved from 1/12 to 6/12. ACHIEVEMENT RIGHT. I'm so proud of them hahahahaha. I actually enjoy teaching them because it's fulfilling, satisfying although sometimes frustrating. Anyway they're fun to be around. Yeah they annoy you with stuff, get distracted, become really bored and wants to end lessons early but at least they make the job less dull with their jokes and all that and i'm surprised to know that they watch discovery channel lol. They think they're bothering me and it's a hassle and tough/frustrating job for me to teach them every week because of their behavior but they're wronggg. Teaching them is such a joy. I guess i have something to look forward to every thursday. Aye now i sound like a lonely shit old teacher. Oh man.

And i'm still sickkk. Sick for damn long already. Hello my immune system please don't let me down okay?

Charcoal fruitare mosquito.

2010-08-08T21:18:00.003+08:00

Chinnie you were right. T.o.p is wayyy hotter. Taller and his eyes are killer. Killer. I am so fickle minded.

Homhom barbequeee at charlene's yesterday :D Thanks babe for inviting! Love your marshmallow rainbow cereal thing! It was awesome to be in a house full of zhonghuarians no matter what. And we had guys tending to the food so all we have to do is play cards, drink coke and wait for fooooood. Nice. Secondary school life is great. Oh played arm wrestling with liwei again and guess what! The righty(me) beat her left arm while the lefty won my right arm. Makes no sense at all. On par againnn. Hmm wore my stupid sandal and got a blister on my right feet. What a bitch.

Attempted to do some proper studying/homeworking this morning but failed exceptionally because of the guy in red suit. Seriously, this is a bad time to develop an unhealthy obsession with k-stuff. Die. Anyhow, shall watch the LAST TWO REMAINING episodes of Bad Guy. Heard it was great. Must be great. What's two years of my life without KNG? Shitzxzxzxzx.

Gone were the days.

2010-08-06T23:40:00.004+08:00

Sorry if you think it's obscene, but most probably not. You either go green in envy or swoon with delight. Why in the world is the picture so small! Erm did i mention how magnificent his abs are? Aye this picture does not allow much to be seen. Hmm too bad. Taeyang is da bomb. Da bomb. And i'll never imagine myself saying that in 100,000 years but i just did. Ohh wells.

National day celebration was uh crap. Not high enough like zhonghua which lishi reminded me of. The random kallang wave, and encore for national day songs. The HIGHNESS. The 'i also don't know why are we high' highness. And then i meet up with zinc and dinoboon lol. Boon is as short and fat as ever hahaha. Me and zinc had kimchi fried rice for lunch while the vegetarian continued eating flour. Bought another connector ring from F21 but this time, it's really awesome! The erm sparrow one? Whee happy luhhh.

Can't remember what else i was going to say except taeyang taeyang taeyang <3
Face don't look too good here, so don't look at the face. Look elsewhere.

No voice not fun.

2010-08-02T16:13:00.004+08:00

Hey peeps i'm actually at home now. Just went to see doctor. Given antibiotics too but i shall stay away from it because i never really was a fan of antibiotics unless i'm that sick.Took 55 home and missed my stop for the first time in my life., shows how my sorethroat is really draining me of my energy. Had like the worst sorethroat during the three periods math lecture for some reason so i couldn't take it anymore and slept throughout. Woke up feeling worst. Crazy stuff.

Well well i'm gonna get some rest now. Nights~

Before i forget, my mum bought a lot of things from japan and seriously, japanese stuff proved to be oh so worthwhile once again. Super juicy and delish peach, yummy crackers and chocolate and cute souvenirs! Hopefully i'll be going to japan this year end. And knowing that my wallet's spoiling, my mum so wonderfully bought me another one from agnes b. So very nice right! May not be the chioest thing but i still love it. <3

Should be studying but i went shopping.

2010-08-01T15:22:00.008+08:00

-asos

I. WANT. Okay now that i'm done, off to mug. Mug some rich guy.

Guess what. I watched bad guy and hwang jin yi (movie) till three in the morning last night. Damn. The movie made me cry so hard luhhh. I like sad movies because well, i like sad stuff, but to see their tragic ending makes it kinda unbearable to watch. Like your heart is ripping. Like you feel the heartache. Putting up a strong front even though both of them are crumbling inside. Actually i think if you're that kind of person that don't put yourself in the character's shoe, nothing much will touch you or make you cry because you can't feel the misery. For me, it's directly the opposite. I think i'm insane.

Got a feeling flu bug's catching up. Cool lovely weather. Maybe too cold. Mum's landing after midnight. Gotta go fetch her. Wish me luck in getting up early tomorrow kiddos.

<333

Get up, get goin'.

2010-07-29T18:37:00.003+08:00

Va Va Vroooooom. I need to get my engine started already. It has come to my realisation that my results are THAT horrible and i really don't have much time left. Say plus minus fifty more days? My results so terrible, i would'nt be surprised if i were to asked to drop to H1 and meet the HOD or whatever crap. MUST. STUDY. STOP GOING OUT. OFTEN. So please people, if anyone's heading out to study, call me along. Thanks.

Anyhow, swim yesterday was fruitful? Hmm shared triple decker and ice aloe vera peach jelly with fellow pig Cheryl lol. Then cabbed home. I want a teleporter.

My source of happiness, strength and sanity and loads of bullshit laughter.

2010-07-25T16:52:00.003+08:00

Friday night was zhss gathering night again! Love those people so much but i guess secondary school life can only be remembered and not relived. Of course we can still meet up often but it's still different. And as much as we are all busy people, we just need to squeeeeze time to meet up. Ahh hell with pw crap and promos.

Hmm i adore talking to friends in vj that i haven't seen in awhile. Cause there's pretty much to catch up to and i have loads to complain haha. Okay my mum is flying off to hokkaido in another 4 more hours. Damn she frequently travel without me. I freaking want to go overseas! Need some fresh air and time away from the hustle and bustle. Being an air stewardess sounds like a good plan ya know. Travel whole day and get good pay whoo.

You'll be surprised. Things are ever changing.

2010-07-22T21:53:00.002+08:00

I don't know why but i just love his vibe.

Oh look i changed my layout! Hahaha i'm like so free. School ends early tomorrow. Can't wait! Okay anyway stupid military enlistment resulted the early end of my favourite drama ): I'm really quite sad. And my results damn fail. Nothing much to brag about. Damn you alevels! Swimming tomorrow again whoo let's get some tan.

By the way, gotta change my ec soon. So for now, i'm ec-less. Why so random. Hmm can't solve method of differences. Arghhh.

EOM fucking kills my brain cells and my eyes.

2010-07-21T22:08:00.004+08:00

Hello Prince Arthur.

OKAY FUCKING EOM IS EFFING KILLING MY NON EXISTENT BRAIN CELLS. FML. WHY IS THE ARTICLE SO HARD TO FIND! CREDIBILITY, RELIABILITY, REPUTATION BLAH BLAH BLAH WHY THE HELL DO YOU EVEN CARE. OMFG. AND THE STUPID REPORT UNDER 600 WORDS WHICH INCLUDES A COUPLE OF IDEAS AND A&E?! FML SERIOUSLY.

And i guess i'm so unlucky that my drama addiction is cuttig early. 17 episodes instead of 20. F U ARMY!

Blinded by the sight of you, but the halo's coming off.

2010-07-19T21:23:00.005+08:00

You, you, you. I hate you. I hate you because even though i don't feel so strongly about you anymore, i still want to share my stories with you. I want to tell you the mediocre things that happened today, the daily boring matters, what i ate, what i had and what i'm doing right now. I like to ask how's your day, the funny things, the random stuff because i really miss you. But you're such a bastard. A completely ignorant, selfish and arrogant bastard. You'll never know the surprise when i receive a text from you, the smile that spreads across my face when you tell me something stupid, the anticipation of waiting for your reply. You will never. Because i had expectations unlike you. And so i'm letting go. No expectations, no disappointment. I can live with that.

Wait, you're not worth my entire post.

So here goes, had an actual pe for the first time after the holidays! Didn't think that there would be running involved so i ditched my running shoe. Bad decision. Had to make do with kelly's shoe but they're a tad too small. So my feet hurt. Then it was swimming! Been long since i last went swimming too haha. Jiaqing was a lucky boy today and we got relay. Whoo sprinting is mad exhaustive but caterpillar in water was really awesomeee! And i feel very tofu, jelly like today. My stupid hands JUST WON'T STOP TREMBLING. It's weird really. Weird things are happening to me.

The froth, the froth the bubbles.

2010-07-17T22:21:00.003+08:00

For a moment, i forgot that beer is not supposed to be drank through a straw, neither should it be with ice and so, i did what's not to be done and i can already feel my bloated tummy/belly/flabby. I guess i would be burping/farting more often in the next few hours. But yeah, i'm satisfied (:

Anyway, i wanna go jogging tomorrow morning but i feel lazy. And tonight's the night which i would be catching up on my dramas, meaning a late night again. So i doubt i would be able to wake up early tomorrow. What to do? And and and, friday was my lucky day! I'm sure kelly and shili is gonna agree with me! Heeeheeeeheeee whoo. FOUR TIMES! Okay whatever. I'm just glad lol.

So much for the best time of my life.

2010-07-15T20:02:00.003+08:00

Yeah people often piss me off but none as much as you. Forget it i'm not gonna waste my time on you here. But just remember there's always a limit to one's tolerance, kid. If you go too overboard, you're gonna get what you deserve.

Just so maybe you could be my saviour.

2010-07-11T00:02:00.002+08:00

I feel like there's a hole in my heart. Almost like a blackhole, devouring me of my purpose, goal, motivation and replacing it with emptiness. Somedays like today, i would feel so damn effing hollow that i'm on the verge of breaking down and giving up. I don't know how to stop this, how to get back on track and i hate to regret before realizing what and whats not. I want to make mistakes now, cry, laugh and be stronger. Live life like i could at this age. To me, there's plenty of things that you can do at a certain age and once you passed the limit, it's too weird. Time flies pass so rapidly, it shocks me when i take a step back and breathe. It is when i stop and think that it dawns upon me that the year is ending, the worst is nearing. And i do miss a lot of people. I miss them so much, i disconnect with the rest of the world that is devoid of them. There's so many things i wanna do, but it's been really hectic and those dreams of mine would have to wait. And hopefully the wait would come to an end.

There's a light that never goes out.

2010-07-06T22:53:00.003+08:00

And i want to go traveling. Those dreams of mine since forever.

I can't remember the last time i dreaded school this much. But it seems like the june holidays and long weekend break pretty up jammed my engine to restart the whole 'school regime'. Lol this kinda reminds me of Hitler and Stalin. So, i barely survived school today, slept through lectures and tutorials. Not entirely though. School food again argh. Don't know what to say.

Post exams.

2010-07-04T22:27:00.004+08:00

Stayover at my house on friday night. Awesome fun, awesome company (wil/joe/bokang/lw), lots of bullshit and laughter. But well well, yesterday's match between germany and argentina crushed joe and wilfred 's BILLION DOLLAR DREAM. Played overnight lan at hougang plaza and i realised i suck at l4d2. Lollollol. Whatever. A bunch of ah bengs came in at god knows what time and started spamming profanities. Hahaha it was damn funny watching wil and joe playing dota cursing and swearing and mimicking the bengs. Had chee cheong fan for breakfast yum. Then we took morning bus back home and slept.

Went shopping at bugis with char today. EVERYTHING THAT WE BOUGHT IS DAMN CHIO. Bought tops and wedges and the tops are CHIO TTM. To the effing max lol. Not cheap though but ahh whatever. And we got ourselves couple friendship band haha. Had the grilled chicken thingy for dinner yum. Today's shopping is fruitful and fab! Ohhhh yeah.

And guess what, the drama is airing once again! I'm super glad really. Saw it uploaded yesterday night andi finished the two new episode at one go. Lovelovelove. Love the drama and the hotties. Rahhhhhh.

Too good to be true.

2010-07-02T01:03:00.004+08:00

Apologies for the spam. Sorry if you don't think he's hot/cute/super hot/effing hot. It doesn't matter as long as i still think that way. Yeah and seriously, not that i have anything against WC or anything, BUT WC IS HINDERING ME WATCHING MY DRAMA! Cause WC is being aired in place of my freaking drama. Like to hell with that. Depriving me of my precious entertainment.

Went out with class, then zhss peeps today. Yay bought stuff from zara. Damn happy. But i still need to go bugis for cheap finds! AND ZOMG I FOUND THIS SUPER AWESOME SHOP AT MARINA SQUARE THAT SELLS DREAM-LIKE RINGS. Skulls and dragons and weird coffins and whatever but they are just so uber cool. Love. Too bad they are $10 each. I would have bought more ):

BITCH I DAMN HUNGRY.

It’s hard to be alone, deep in the night. I try to avoid the dark life and be seeking the light. But so many times I fall in between the lines of what is a devilish sign and what is divine. If you base your life on wasted nights with no faith in sight, you might as well free base on pipes. I’ve fallen down but I got up friend. Fell twice. Three times. Got up again and again. And again, it’s nobody’s but my fault, it didn’t end. You only don’t win - when you give in. The days we live in.
-Mindstate, CunninLynguists.