When did i start losing my strength.

Yeah tumblr's all fun and addictive crack so i guess i kinda need to pour everything out here since what i'm feeling right now is kinda too heavy for tumblr. No this is just for me to vent. Okay so perhaps CT1s really isn't anything for me to get too worried about since it's kinda like the warm ups and everybody says it's gonna be fine blah blah. I gotta admit that i didn't put in much effort this time round so maybe that'll be an excuse for my worst than crap results but then again i did put in some effort and it seemed like it didn't count at all. And if i can't even sacrifice a little here and there now, how am i going to put in more effort next time round? And then i think about my four H2s and goddamnit how many times have i thought of dropping but the small hope of getting a scholarship always pushed the idea out of my head but right now it seems inevitable for me to drop. Then again i wonder which to drop. All my subjects seems equally weak to me. You kidding me. Seriously. I know what's wrong but i don't know why i can't/won't do anything about it. Pfft. So now i feel like all the strength is draining out of me and i can't possibly go on much further it's like i'm not strong enough to overcome all this challenges and this scares the shit outta me. Where the fucking hell is my determination, my strength, or do i have none to speak of? I see my friends mugging the daylights outta them but i can't seem to start. Okay maybe this is some trivial kid crisis but alevels is a freaking life and death shit. Once you're screwed, you're fucking screwed and i'm not even rich enough to afford an overseas education. So i guess that's it for me then.

Somebody tell me everything's gonna be okay please?

end of rant/vent

I've got a tumblr but i'm not revealing the address cause i want to have the freedom to post whatever whichever i like (: I kinda feel liberated. Well, expect me to neglect my blog for a while!

YUNHO AND JAEJOONG WERE MEANT FOR EACH OTHER.

There are so many things in life that i'm bitter about, but sometimes i wonder if they're really that important, if it really does affect me that much.

I am a total slob and there's nothing i can do about it.

Tumblr and twitter so darn tempting but i'm too much of a pig.
But so tempting! Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Tumblr cause i can reblog like nobody's business. Twitter allows me to rant every five seconds. I will try my best.

Beyond words.

Teddy Tedholm is fucking brilliant.

TEDDY.

SO DAMN FUCKING GOOD.

On sudden post spam.

WHAT THE FUCKERY IS THIS. Oh my holy cow this pissed me off so bad. THIS WITCH HAVE BETTER CHANCES OF GOING TO HELL THAN GAYS. When they finally get murdered, there should be autopsy performed to see what the hell was growing in their brains to make them think like that. I mean gays are so much cooler. GO TYRA, KNOCK THE SHIT OUTTA THEM.

I wanna go paris and see hot gays for real. Stereotyping.